heart's mind

i thought if i met him the feeling will back again... but i realise the broken is too bad... it's worst... broke my heart into pieces...

watching his face deeply made me realise nothing left there in my heart... nothing left that could make my heart feel the beat again...

there's no missing feeling, no warm feelings that make me want to see him, no "deg-deg" feelings that made me eiger to miss him, just feel emptiness and flat even i was face to face with him... i didn't dare to touch him cos i was too afraid those hurts will comeback to hit my heart and me badly.....

Then why so hard for me to let him loose... to let him filled his days with his love one, to surender my feelings into darknes night....?!