Half Past Year 2nd

August:

I missed sum1 special b’day, and i didn’t know how to tell him how deeply my sorry was, i think he shud upset with me… he doesn’t know how special he is for me! pssttt.. my only secret… well happy belated b’day dear, wish i could shown you how much you meant to me… but it’s forbidden… in every ways…

SePtEmBeR :

Iceberg’s B’day… this time i didn’t make it to contact him, cos he was faraway… infact i didin’t know where he was…and still…

I lost sum1 dearly in this month, Mr.Chris Siahaya, he was my sister’s father in law, and also my father’s best friend and my aunty’s brother in law… small world, right!

PS: i dumped another scum from my love life..again… gee why i had to involved with alot of scumbags…..ppffuuiiihhh…

OkToBeR :

On this month my mom got sick and had to spent few days at hospital b’cos of her diabethic, and she’s been living with me at my grandmother’s house since that…

This month my past “romance” back again… when i met him i didn’t know what to do, i was so nervous and the funniest thing was he didn’t have any clue about my feeling… i think i like playing with fire… honestly, i was glad he came…

NOVEMBER:

Sumtimes i wonder, why God let us to fall in love and get married then separated by death….being separated in any ways so sucks… tears, broken hearted, sadness, emptimess, struggling to keep standing still, being alone… those are such a crap… but life is goin on, right and that’s what God’s wants us to do…

i saw my “past romance” back away this month… back to where he’s from, still sumthing dissapeard in my heart, saw him from distance and couldn’t do anything except waving your hands saying gudbye…and the only thing left just the memories….

Again my mom went to hospital… i really sad and confuse and affraid… she’s stayed at hospital only for 4 days …. thank’s God…

And also this month one of my best had been sent to out of town... Amoy i missed her..already!

DECEMBER:

X’Mas is coming on its way… watcha gonna do for the preparation? will write it down here a.s.a.p k?!Finally my “ past romance” findout about my heart… and it’s all coming back to me now… all the feelings, the sories, the flirt… is this my other stupidity?or am i just being luck?

i think i need somebody here… S.O.S.